Exercise is Allowed to be Fun

Exercise is Allowed to be Fun

The fitness and diet industries have been spreading underlying messages of fear for a long time now. They have taught us to squeeze in workouts even when we are exhausted. They have taught us to push just a little bit harder even when your body is asking you to stop. They have taught us to count the calories burned, to accept the shaming language of your body needs to change, to look in the mirror and always strive for more improvements, to keep buying all of the things to help reach “x weight” which means that you will then be deemed worthy. To “punish” yourself for eating “too many calories..” because if you can just get to the gym all will be fine. To workout harder so you can “cancel” out the cake you were “not supposed” to enjoy the day before.  

It’s a no wonder we have such a weird negative, on and off again, relationship with exercise... But it doesn’t have to be that way.

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Why Are We Always Apologizing?

Why Are We Always Apologizing?

A few months ago at the grocery store I turned a corner and almost ran into someone. Neither one of us saw the other coming. Instantly, I responded with, “oh, sorry!” And to this day I will never forget his reaction, “why are you sorry?” In that moment I started noticing how often I am apologizing and interestingly how often other women are apologizing. Rather than saying, “oh excuse me!” we quickly take the blame for whatever it is and move out of the way. But why?

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Healing My Relationship With Food.

Healing My Relationship With Food.

I wanted to dig into last weeks topic of fear of food a bit more. There was a point in my life where I was finally ready to start healing the way I viewed food and my body. When you have had such a negative relationship with these things for so many years it was hard to find a place to start with it all. It took a lot of trial and error and examining people in my life who seemed to have a “normal” relationship with these things for me to finally put some pieces together and move forward.

In reflecting back there were some key steps in my recovery process. This post discusses those steps and what I did in order to start healing my relationship to food and my body.

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Fear of Food

Fear of Food

What does it mean to fall off track/get back on track? Have we put so much fear into food that if we have a cheeseburger and fries or a milkshake or macaroni and cheese that we are bad humans and we made a mistake and need to get back on track first thing tomorrow morning? What makes you bad or good for eating certain things? I want to dig into this topic a little more. This idea around “back on track” and the feelings we associate and assign to different foods. Why do we as humans do that? What is it about food that we are so afraid of?

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Podcasts, Dreams, and Fears.

Podcasts, Dreams, and Fears.

Okay I have some pretty big news (well it feels like big news to me) I HAVE STARTED A PODCAST!!! Holy scary. My inner mean voice is going NUTS with things like “who the hell do you think you are? NO one is going to listen to you ramble for 30 minutes each week. What do you even have to say anyways.” And I would consider that the nice version of her…

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When I Went to Las Vegas and Didn’t Drink.

When I Went to Las Vegas and Didn’t Drink.

Over the weekend, I got on a plane to Las Vegas for a work event. And I guess it just never lined up in the past but here I was at almost 27 years old, standing in front of The Strip for the very first time. A few years ago, I would have dove head first into the culture of Vegas- the lights, the party's, the drinks. But today, I felt nervous. I was walking into a weekend of conference events, late night networking, and lots of opportunities to drink... with the intention of staying completely sober.

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What My ACE Personal Training Exam Taught Me About Failure.

What My ACE Personal Training Exam Taught Me About Failure.

On Friday I took my ACE Personal Training exam.. A test I have been preparing for since March of this year. It was something I have been wanting to do for years but had kept putting off.. And looking back it was this thing called failure that was pushing me away from taking those steps towards my dream.

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Dealing With Rock Bottom Doesn't Have to be Pretty or Perfect

Dealing With Rock Bottom Doesn't Have to be Pretty or Perfect

While working on Eric's birthday gift last week (a photo album of our past year), I was forced to reflect on this past summer and all of the hardship and growth behind the beauty of the some of those photos. And I thought now that the dust has settled and I have had some time to reflect, it would be a good time to talk about everything that went down and why I am now so, so thankful for all of it.

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Last Weekend, I Put Fear in the Drivers Seat..

Last Weekend, I Put Fear in the Drivers Seat..

I’ve been discussing these topics of love vs fear based decisions along with worthiness/ approval, and how to navigate our feelings to find those things internally. I wanted to talk about an experience from the weekend that challenged me when it came to all of the above and to remind you that this is a constant practice, that it is something I work on every single day. And while it may not always be easy, it is always worth it.

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