This week on the podcast I am bringing you a solo episode.. A raw part of my sobriety story that I have not yet shared on the pod.
For years I searched outside of myself to feel a certain kind of way. I used alcohol to numb my emotionality because I didn’t know how to feel. I relied on men and other people outside of myself to feel wanted, worthy, enough. I got to a point where I didn’t know what I wanted or who I was anymore.
In this episode I talk about all of those things. I talk about my breaking point in Colorado where I knew I needed to make some kind of change, any kind of change because I felt so unfulfilled, so empty from the booze, from the nights out, from constantly trying to get external validation.
I talk about how using our external world to feel something doesn’t work for the long run. It is such a temporary, unfulfilling way to search for wholeness. Because in the end, we are the only ones that can truly embrace and feel our worth.. It already exists, we just need to lean into it. To feel it. To truly start believing it. No drink or one night stand or external vice will truly bring us those things.
If you are struggling with any of these things, I promise you are not alone and there is another way. I would love to support you <3
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